Crying from the Inside Out...: a memoir about living and loving a person with bipolar disorder

About this book

Finally accepting life was not going to be what I dreamt about growing up, I fall in love with a man who I think changes all of that, only to find out that his deep, dark secret would soon change my life forever. This is a true story about my two year relationship living and loving a man with bipolar disorder. Nobody could have ever warned me how this mental illness would drastically change my life or that I would become so utterly powerless against this sickness. The first chapter of this book describes our developing love for one another and how our relationship seems literally unbreakable. The second chapter begins with me experiencing for the first time one of Ismael's manic episodes, whereby I get to see a complete other side of the man I thought I knew. Lastly, the third chapter walks you through my daily journals of this horrific mental illness and how bipolar disorder becomes stronger than our love. What I experience living and loving this man turns into a complete nightmare ranging from his numerous arrests, gross negligence by the mental health system and ultimately one of his manic episodes raging out of control. It eventually leads to my first experience with physical violence. All in all, I am forced to watch as self-destruction literally takes down the man I love.“Crying From The Inside Out” is an inspirational story that will help others involved in the life of someone suffering feel like they are not alone in this toxic journey. The true fact is that the bipolar person afflicted with this illness is not the only one hurting. The people that love them experience extreme anguish as well as society at large. Even as I lived each day trying to make sense of it all, this mental illness not only affected my life, but was affecting other lives in the media (i.e. - Senator Deeds' is stabbed by his bipolar son and then devastated by his actions, he turns a gun on himself and ultimately ends his own life; Amanda Bynes' family struggle with the mental health system trying to get their daughter help before it is too late; and the master chief contestant, Josh Marks, committing suicide during a manic episode). All of these people have to deal with bipolar disorder and I talk about all of them and more in the book.Whether you have experienced bipolar disorder in your life or not, this book will open your eyes so you can see how it is spreading through our world today by storm. Don't let this illness go unnoticed any longer! I am prepared to be the voice of these people suffering in silence and my goal is to let the world know how debilitating this disease is for everybody involved so that changes can be made to stop bipolar disporder in its tracks!God Bless